When will I not love you?

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By Ben

It’s been more than a year and I still love you. You’re still the first thing I think about when I wake. I check your Facebook to see if you’re still single, knowing I’ll cry the day I see you aren’t.

I still love you despite everything. Despite that last time we spoke you told me you hated me and that you never wanted to see or hear from me ever again. You made me cry. You tried to convince me that I’m a horrible person and despite that, I love you.

You broke my heart

You hurt me and then you broke my heart. I just wanted you to come back. You couldn’t be nice to me when we went out for my last birthday. I cried in your car, and went through depression because of you. I couldn’t handle it.

You make me feel that it’s all my fault. When we’ve talked, you wanted to argue. I just wanted to be friends. I know you feel guilt and that hurts you.

We’ve not spoken for nearly three months. I’ve respected your wishes not to contact you.

I’ve tried to move on

Apparently this heartbreak is similar to cocaine addiction. Perhaps you are just an addiction and I need to go cold turkey. I’ve had to accept that I might always feel this way. I may have to share it between my future wife and you.

I love you.