It feels like drowning.
You can still see everyone breathing. But you’re drowning.
The thoughts smother you.
They strangle you.
They never leave you alone.
Depression feels like an unknown world. Everything is dark. Everything is loud.
Feeling like you’re not human.
You feel numb.
The feeling that you’re drowning is constant. Nobody can tell you’re sinking.
Seeing everyone else breathing. Seeing them smiling and laughing.
But you’re not capable of that.
When I was a kid I used to panic when I couldn’t swim. But I’m used to the feeling of drowning now. Panic does nothing.