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By Amysboarderlineworld

When you have a mental health problem, whether it be a personality disorder, depression or an eating disorder, it’s all about you. Everything is all about you. And that is totally fine. As it should be. You’re concentrating on your recovery. However, something that – terribly – only occurred to me in the last year was how my husband might really be feeling.

Being Married to Someone with Mental Health Issues

Being married to someone with mental health issues

Now, I always put everyone first, including my husband, doing as much as I can for him and constantly checking he is OK. However,  I never really thought about how he felt about my diagnosis. How my condition might be affecting him.

I remember visiting my psychologist early last year with my husband. This was the first occasion he attended with me, and I remember her asking my husband some in-depth questions. She asked how he was really feeling about things, and how they were affecting him on a day-to-day basis. This changed me instantly. It gave me a huge insight into how he really feels most days.

I’ve chosen to ask my hubby a few questions and with his permission publish them here. I’m doing this in the hope it might help other people in the same situation. My husband is so supportive of me and is more than happy to have these questions and answers published. So please take a read.

Questions about being married to someone with mental health issues

Q. Did you ever think in the past that I might have had a mental health issue?

A. No, never. You hid your pain and struggles very well. Too well!

Q. What were your first thoughts when I was diagnosed?

A. How did I not notice?! I was confused and shocked and struggled to understand. My feelings were of so much sadness for you. Sad that you were struggling and had been for so long. I felt awful that I couldn’t help you, and I felt a bit useless to be honest.

My thoughts have changed

Q. How did your thoughts and feelings change over the time of me being diagnosed to now?

A. I have a lot more understanding of mental health in general. Also, I am much better at spotting the signs of when you might be getting ‘bad’ again. I try and understand as much as I can by reading things, including your blog, so I know how I can help guide you out of any bad times. I have made the commitment to not let you go through anything alone. It has also made me a lot less judgemental towards others.

Q. How did you feel when I was admitted into hospital?

A. Shocked! Sad! Confused! Worried! Helpless! So scared! I was told very little, so it was a very difficult time.

I felt terrified

Q. How were you left feeling after my suicide attempts?

A. Completely terrified! I couldn’t believe I came so close to losing my wife, my best friend, and our son to losing his mummy! There was also frustration and anger towards you. How could you do this to people that love you!? I was left feeling alone and isolated again. Then I was told nothing by doctors etc., so I didn’t know how to cope!

Q. Do you/did you find it easy to talk to family members and friends about my/our situation?

A. No. I found it very difficult. Impossible really. No one understood, so it seemed pointless. I felt like this was my family so it was my responsibility, and I didn’t think talking about it would help to be honest.

I still worry

Q. How have your thoughts around mental health changed since my diagnosis?

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A. They have massively changed. From knowing almost nothing I have a much better understanding. I can sympathise as I know it is not the persons fault and they can’t simply ‘snap out of it’. It is extremely complex and needs so much more attention – and funds!

Q. Even though I am in recovery do you still get worried/scared?

A. Yes! Every day! I am always nervous that you could end up in that dark place again, and I know how easy it is for something to trigger you so I do feel on edge sometimes. Also, since the pregnancy I have been more worried, but I’m so proud of how you have stayed strong and asked for help when you’ve needed it.

I received no support

Q. Do you feel you personally get/got enough support?

A. No! I was never offered any kind of support. This needs to change, as being a partner to someone who is ill takes it out of you, physically and mentally. It’s such a scary and confusing time for us especially if we have never dealt with anything like it before. We are the ones who care for our ill partners most of the time, so we need to be in the right frame of mind to do this safely.

Q. If you could change one thing about this journey what would it be?

A. Other than the obvious – I would want to change the mental health system! There should be much shorter waiting times, for one. Then there needs to be much, much more support. More support for you, as the care you were given was crap at times, but also more support and understanding for the entire family!

One final and important question

Q. Is there anything you would like to add?

A. This whole journey has been so exhausting for all of us. It’s scary, confusing and mentally and physically draining. Never really knowing from one day to the next how things are going to be. Fighting with a crap mental health system making life even more difficult than it should be. At the same time I am so, so proud of you. When it would have been so easy to give up, you have kept on fighting. No matter how hard it got. For that I love you even more.

These are just a few questions and answers, but hopefully they give you an insight into what it is really like to live with someone who has mental health issues.

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Life is worth living

This is absolutely NOT meant to make anyone suffering feel any worse about their diagnosis. It’s actually to show the opposite. My intention is to show you that no matter how bad things get there will always be people out there who desperately want to help you. To love you, to be there for you, and to show you that life is worth living, no matter how dark it can all seem.

Another thing that cropped up here is the lack of support for loved ones. It’s horrendous that my husband and so many other people out there are being offered nothing in the was of mental or practical support.

If you have any other questions then please let me know. My inbox is always open.

Stay safe.

Love Amy x

Reproduced with permission, originally posted on Amysboarderlineworld

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