high anxiety worrier
0 0
Read Time:1 Minute, 52 Second
By Ben

I thought I’d share my own experiences with the dark sides of mental health and anxiety.  I was diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder last year, aged 35, by a member of the IAPT team.  This was during my initial phone call interview before volunteering for cognitive behavioural therapy.

High Anxiety

I’ve always been a worrier

The symptoms I disclosed were those that I’d been suffering with as long as I could remember.  I think I’d only told my GP about it in the first place because I was more frantic than normal.  This was possibly because I had moved into a new property and got married a few weeks later.

I’ve always been a worrier.  I’ve spent a huge chunk of my life having internal battles in my mind, constantly replaying the last thing I felt I did wrong.  I then torment myself by thinking I would have avoided ruining that thing or having that incident if I’d just taken the other path instead.  Then I repeatedly wish in my mind that I’d taken the correct option.  Then everything would be perfect.

Glimpse into the mind of anxiety

It feels like I suffer from this 24/7, or as long as there’s energy in my body.  There’s a constant worry about issues with my health – such as sight and hearing.  With money – such as forever worrying that I’ve overpaid with the contactless card machine.  Also, I’m always worrying that I haven’t clocked in at work or done it properly.  I’m terrible with new items that I’ve bought or someone’s bought for me, say an item of clothing, like the New England shirt which I feel I’ve immediately ruined by catching the shoulder part of the garment on the car door as I enter the vehicle.

This is just a glimpse into my mind, and I’ll always replay these moments, wishing that I’d not ruined everything because of taking one option instead of another. Or that if I don’t get paid properly then that’s loads of stress to deal with, or that I’m going to go deaf.  It’s rare that I experience internal bliss.

submit article or blog

About Post Author

1in4

Follow me on <a href="http://www.facebook.com/iamoneinfour" rel="noopener">facebook</a>
Happy
Happy
0 %
Sad
Sad
0 %
Excited
Excited
0 %
Sleepy
Sleepy
0 %
Angry
Angry
0 %
Surprise
Surprise
0 %

UNITED STATES

iam 1in4 mental health daily tracker and journal

UNITED KINGDOM

iam 1in4 mental health daily tracker and journal

mental health nurse Previous post On being a Mental Health Nurse
music saved me Next post Why music saved, saves and will keep saving me