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Panic attacks, my breath a tragic victim to the abundant anxiety that dominated my whole being. This was a very frequent occurrence for me. A very deadly seeming one. My period of attacks consumed me until recently, a happier time, a time full of romance, self discovery, and growth.
Panic at Parents Evening
A vivid panic attack, in my fact my first, compromised of fear, unawareness, and a fuck tonne of pins and needles! It arose from the overwhelming pressure that fell heavily upon my tense shoulders. it was the night of my school parents evening. Predicted grades here, ‘exams as upcoming’ there. That evening, my youthful, ignorant eyes ran through the distinct numbers plastered upon computer screens, as teachers motivated me to exceed these predicted grades, something I found hard to cope with. It wasn’t that this was impossible for me to do so. It was very much possible, but on this precise evening my anxiety proved the better of me.
As soon as I dumped the posters of revision websites given to me from teachers on my scruffy bed, and scrolled through social media, a sudden aura of panic took control of me. Heart palpitating, and a feeling of unease and dizziness began. the horrid vision of numbers on computer screens whizzed around in my mind like a washing machine of pressure-it was as though the predicted grades attempted to haunt me. And then, inevitably, came the invading tsunami of breathlessness. the memorable screams let out due to this unawareness of its cause. Running, my mum wrapped me in her arms, comforting me. “Breathe slowly, in and out.” she continuously said, desperate for her happy daughter back. As my breath revealed back to normal, pins and needles tingled immensely through my hands and feet. The disorientation transcended else where, finally leaving my body exhausted.
Ultimately, this night had consumed the once innocent, content girl that I was. And, in her place, revealed, a teen packed, and overflowing, of anxiety and disturbing attacks.
Private turned Public
The panic attacks, however, did not just appear in the private, comfortable area of my home, but also, very much so, in public places. Another vivid memory of these panic attacks took place in the incredibly compact space of a school classroom. Students seated along the tightly filled rows, and my anxiety decided this seemed a great environment to have a panic attack! And so, with this, flared a horrifically situated panic attack. My awareness completely taken from me, I stood up. Others eyes glaring at me as I began to scream through the breathlessness that frightened me almost every time it occurred. Storming out as quick as possible, I could hear the sniggers that lingered as I did so. Therefore, not only was I overwhelmed with panic, but also major embarrassment throughout my attempt to calm down.
Brief Understanding of what a Panic Attack is:
Acoording to the NHS, a panic attack is a feeling of sudden and intense anxiety. Panic attacks can also have physical symptoms such as:
- Shaking
- Disorientation
- Nausea
- Rapid or irregular heartbeat
- Dry mouth
- Breathlessness
- Sweating
- And dizziness
These are usually brought on abruptly. With many feeling embarrassed or distraught over their symptoms, and often many questioning if they are dangerous. Disturbingly, panic attacks may, at times, feel like a heart attack or other conditions. But, the answer to the dangerous question, it will not kill you. Although, they are serious, and if frequent, this definitely needs to be addressed.
Today I reminisce on the continuous panic attacks that kept trend until today, as previously explained, a period in my life of very little, to none, attacks, and of tranquility-happier mentality. I know, sadly, this is not the same for others, they are continuous and are having to suffer through each abundant attack. And so, let’s raise understanding not to snigger at their tragedy, help them with their state of panic, and, most of all, know whether people, or yourself, are having an attack and awareness about getting help.
Reproduced with permission, originally posted here: palpitation.health.blog
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