I was raised by a Narcissistic Mother

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By Anon

I suffer with Borderline Personality Disorder and have done for many years, most probably from childhood. They say most who suffer from BPD have been subjected to some kind of abuse, neglect, abandonment, etc… I’m one of those people, sadly! I’ve recently discovered that I was raised by a narcissistic mother.

After having a few chats with my therapist, I began to understand that I was raised by a mother who didn’t actually give me any emotional love or care, and neglected me in the same way! It’s all been based on how other people see her and our family life, so I’ve never been good enough or recognised as my own person.

Lack of love and care

I’ve more or less forgotten my childhood. I thought somebody else had ruined my dreams of growing up happy, but now I realise it was my mother. I do remember the lack of love and care, her leaving me to do other things and not caring about me, as a baby, crying because I didn’t want her to leave me.

I’ve had abuse, neglect, lack of love and care, abandonment, and chaotic relationships all my life. This has made me into what I am today… a Borderline Personality Disorder sufferer. But I know it’s not my fault. I couldn’t help the things that have happened to me in the past. But I know now that because I was raised by a narcissistic mother, and because I’m still living in the same home as her, it’s still going to be hard until I’m mentally strong enough to flee.

I will be better on my own, and I will get through it!