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0 By Lisa Lewis-Martin
Do you know about the Switch? The On/Off Switch in Borderline Personality Disorder, that magically turns itself on or off, sometimes a hundred times a day!
One day you could be having an ‘Okay’ sort of day. Everything’s plodding along quite nicely, then you suddenly turn into Demon Woman/Man. That Switch has turned itself on all by itself – there wasn’t any warning, but now I’ve turned into that ‘Devil’ that lives inside of me, looking for ways to destroy everything in my own path!
Or you’re on the floor, sobbing, everything is on your shoulders, right there, pushing you down. Then, within minutes, you’re back smiling sweetly and carrying on as though nothing has happened!
No one sees it coming
You didn’t see the Switch coming, nobody can see it coming, it just happens. It’s invisible, but somehow it manages to click itself on and off just as much as it likes. Some can control it, some can’t.
The Switch can turn you into a monster, a devil, somebody completely different. But in a few minutes, an hour, you can be back to what you normally are, a misunderstood, stigmatised person, who is trying to do their very best through the battle of BPD!
I wish I had control of that Switch!
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