It’s ok not to be ok

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By Hanna

I’m writing this during mental health awareness week, so I thought I’d write something I’ve been thinking about a lot recently.

It’s ok not to be ok

Throughout my high school experience I was bullied emotionally and sometimes physically. I had 3 friends who I spoke to, but I very rarely trusted anyone. I didn’t feel like I was someone special to anyone! It got to the point where I was bullied so much I wanted to die. I felt a burden to everyone. My mum had no idea I was being bullied because I didn’t want to stress her.

Even now I always feel like I’m nothing special. I have an amazing boyfriend, a lovely family and I have some friends that I still talk to. But I still very rarely trust people. I have low days everyday and never tell anyone about it. I just sleep or ignore everyone and get in to my own little ball and cut out the world.

Many people say “you’ll get over it, it’s all in your head” but Mental health is something I struggle with everyday. Even though I never talk about my mental health problem, it’s important for everyone to know that I still have days where my anxiety and my low days combine and I can’t do much without crying or just feeling like I’m useless. I hate that I have these mind problems, but it’s ok not to be ok.