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0 By Tina
Fighting the urge to stop fighting
Life is shit, life is raw,
When did it become this bloody chore?
I fight for my rights, I fight for my dreams
Yet the world fights against me and complains when I scream!
Darkness and hatred loom all around
I try to fight back but it beats me to the ground.
People say fight it, for you are strong-willed,
It’s hard to keep fighting when it’s always uphill.
Darkness is looming, I can’t keep it at bay,
I’m here in a hell, what more can I say?
Mental Health is a taboo,
They want me to stay quiet
It’s all in my head, they want me to deny it.
They say it’s as simple as putting on a smile,
Walk in my footsteps I beg, just a mile.
I try to be strong, I try to fight back,
I try to prove I’m better than that.
All that I’m left with is hatred and hurt,
As the darkness descends and I’m no longer alert.
I beg of you please, don’t judge me and say,
Get over yourself and start living each day.
My mind always racing, self-loathing aspires
I can’t beat this feeling, all hope has expired,
I feel like a failure, I feel like a fraud,
And I look to the day I can be with the Lord.
I can’t take the hurt, I can’t bear the darkness.
I can’t find the strength to put out these fires.
I’m fighting my demons, I am fighting the desire
To take all these pills and extinguish my dire.
If heaven awaits when the time is right
Why do I go to bed and pray it’s tonight?
The light shines so brightly,
The grass is so green,
I want to step over and live in this dream.
No longer the hurt or pain will I suffer.
Is this really so much to ask and desire?
UNITED STATES
UNITED KINGDOM
