I was the last to know that something was wrong. I didn’t wake up one day feeling depressed.It crept up on me over weeks and months.
CAPABLE NOT CURED – Road to Recovery
COUNSELLING My counsellor was based in a nearby GP’s surgery. He was mild mannered and kind. I cried in every session but felt a small sense of catharsis when our hour was up. He described a duality in my personality. A desire for closeness but a tendency to push people Continue Reading
CAPABLE NOT CURED – Reaching Out
PART 2: REACHING OUT BREAKDOWN Still I didn’t really talk to my husband. He took our son to nursery the next morning. I decided to ring in sick. I sat on the floor next to my bed sobbing uncontrollably. Then two weird things happened. First, my phone rang. I had Continue Reading
CAPABLE NOT CURED -Breakdown
PART 1: THE BREAKDOWN ASKING FOR HELP It was June 2015. I knew it was coming. The warning signs were all there. I was angry, feeling easily overwhelmed, aggressive, making snap decisions/judgements, acting out at work, unable to prioritize tasks so becoming obsessive about irrelevant things, not sleeping, indulging in Continue Reading
CAPABLE NOT CURED – Intro
INTRODUCTION My journey with depression started in my early 20’s. I am not sure what triggered these feelings, just that I started to feel lost. Lonely. Without purpose. I started to suffer with crippling panic attacks on a daily basis; breathlessness, chest pains and dizzy spells. It was a visceral feeling Continue Reading
me. I went back to bed.
The heart palpations continued and I started to get very anxious; a feeling of nervousness and fear spread over me. I started to tremble and the tightness in my chest felt as if it was closing in on me, a feeling of nausea swirled deep in the pit of my stomach.
