18 years of PTSD – I cry with love and with loss, shame and guilt, anger and sadness. I scream silently. For 18 years I’ve been telling people I’m fine.
The screams would haunt the rest of her life. After the first night, she would hide her feelings, the scars she made on her body, the pain and despair.
I told the hospital psychiatrist, ‘I’m fine, I’m glad it didn’t work’, even forcing a smile. I was lying. Luckily, I was sent to a secure psychiatric unit.
Our loved ones did not die of ‘suicide’, or the methods that the Press should be ashamed of reporting. They died of mental illness, and we need parity.