‘Who is going to believe you?’ That’s what my step-mum used to tell me every single time she hurt me. Often with my face mashed against the wall…
BPD and Decision-Making
When a moment arises where I have to make a decision, my heart immediately starts pounding, I can literally feel my chest tightening.
She had to travel through madness to find herself
I didn’t do anything wrong, this is because of stuff that was done to me, not because I’m a bad person. So I refuse to hide.
Flashbacks – My Younger Self Wakes
I’m six again, standing in that corner where my step-mum has been punishing me, maybe for the last 24 hours or longer. I’m not allowed to move.
I Will Not Tolerate Your Abuse
I will not tolerate your abuse. I will not take your beatings. I will not accept your bullying. I will not listen to your bull.
The Time I Learned About How PTSD Can Affect Your Life
I knew immediately this earthquake was different. I told the girls what was happening, and yelled for them to get outside.
Hold The Vision, Trust The Process
I’m starting to get to know the me you left behind. I’m bruised and scared, but day by day, I find more strength. One day I will find my voice.
Waiting for the Other Shoe to Fall
If as children we lived in a threatening world where our needs were met with our caregivers responding with abuse, we become hyperalert for danger.
The Girl with no Past
I survived years of abuse as a child, and years were wiped from my memory. There’s very little I remember – I’m the girl with no past.
How childhood traumas can cause mental health issues
I was broken as a child, and my mind was scarred. I had lost my siblings, my mother, and my father. I experienced abuse and neglect.
Replacing the Old Tapes with New
Every adult human has them. Those voices in the back of your consciousness silently telling you of your worth, recorded in childhood.
Still I Rise
Maya Angelou wrote many poems that touch my soul, but none like ‘Still I Rise’. Her words are true for anyone whose pain has been marginalized,