Thought I was impossible to love | Demonised when my only way to cope was to shed blood | People told me that they cared, but they showed me otherwise |
Little Girl Lost – The Inner Child in BPD
They say you have to talk to your inner child in BPD, console her, but I don’t want to remember the times I was hurt, rejected, abandoned, and abused.
The Worst Days in a BPD life
I had a bad day yesterday… no, scrap that, I had one of the most awful, unbearable, worst days EVER yesterday! How did I survive?
The Longest Day
Every day after losing your child is the longest day, particularly when your child has died by suicide. It’s about the number of hours of excruciating pain.
Intelligence does not protect you from mental illness
Just because I’m smart, it doesn’t mean my mind can’t get sick too. Intelligence does not protect you from mental illness.
Borderline Personality Disorder is invisible
Borderline Personality Disorder is invisible. We don’t look ill, some of us hold down a job, some of us even smile now and again!
I Don’t
I don’t run, of fear to fall. I don’t write, of fear to disappoint. Sometimes, I do things. Sometimes, I manage. But I’m just so afraid.
Something Inside
The thoughts in my head, the fears in my heart, sometimes it’s just way too much. I try, and I breathe, and I live, and so repeat.
Switching Headaches
A common problem for people living with dissociative identity disorder is switching headaches. I am going to write this piece about my own experiences.
Light & Dark
The water is deep, dragging me underneath. I can’t see. I can’t hear. I can’t feel. I can’t scream. I reach for the light. But it’s so far away.
What I would like you to understand ~ How I suffer with BPD
I can’t control how I suffer with BPD, including my black & white thinking. Even if I’m crying, broken on the floor, I still love you and want you to stay.
Hallucinations and Monsters
Hallucinations and monsters – like a darkness that creeps over me and swallows my soul. I draw the images I see. It helps to see my hallucinations on paper.