I reach out to help others, but today I needed help and was abandoned and ignored. Next time I will keep quiet, I won’t try reaching out.
Shades of Grey: Coping with Grief and Mental Health
The loss of a loved one is an extremely private and emotional ordeal. Coping with grief and mental health at once is even more complex.
Constant Replay – The loved ones left behind
Burying grief does not work. Over time, like a weed growing up through concrete, those emotions will emerge and demand to be accepted.
The power of love – I will feel again
In moments of darkness, where I feel nothing at all, I will feel again. That’s the power of love. You can’t love when you’re dead.
18 years of PTSD
18 years of PTSD – I cry with love and with loss, shame and guilt, anger and sadness. I scream silently. For 18 years I’ve been telling people I’m fine.
I was raised by a Narcissistic Mother
Abuse, neglect and abandonment are linked to BPD, and I suffered as a child, sadly. I’ve recently learnt that I was raised by a narcissistic mother.
I know the day will come
I’ve loved my close ones till my heart nearly burst into two, but they didn’t see the tears, the hurt, the anger, the frustration that kept holding me back.
One More Light – One Year On
Chester’s art was powerful, emotive, unique and beautiful. It never failed to make me feel intensely; I ache when I listen to it.
The first night – Pain and despair
The screams would haunt the rest of her life. After the first night, she would hide her feelings, the scars she made on her body, the pain and despair.
Mirror
When I look in the mirror | There is nothing to see | I am blinded by the feeling |Just not wanting to be | She used to be there | Many moons ago
The Up Paradox
The problem with Up is that you forget, and you begin to believe that there was nothing ever wrong with you in the first place.
I’ll never have that
The special something that bewitched me | I’ll never have that | That lingering hug | I’ll never have that | The look that says ‘I want you’