I told every member of staff and both of my psychiatrists just how evil I thought I was. That I needed locking up with the key thrown away.
A Neighbourhood Called Rejection
One foot over the border into the land of Rejection and it’s there, smack right in front of me. It can’t be ignored. I bumped into it hard.
What do you have to be thankful for?
Reflecting, I’m thankful I didn’t take the decorations down. I am heartbroken, but I choose to be thankful for the good in my life, the warmth and love.
The Life I Lost
The life I lost | The joy forever gone | Replaced by pain and grief | The smiling heart forever lost | Replaced by emptiness
Death and Grief
Experiencing death and grief helped me understand myself. I’m helping others now, and I think my dad would be proud of who I am today.
What is Friendship? Let Me Tell You A Story
We were close as flower petals. We knew each other’s hearts and each other’s fears. And we knew how to find strength in one another.
High Days and Holidays – The Enormity of my Grief
High days and holidays are even more difficult than the ordinary days. His absence is more apparent and the enormity of my grief is even more intense.
Missing Out
It’s hard to accept, but having chronic mental ill-health and taking medication every day has a significant impact on what I’m physically able to do.
Time continues to be a conundrum
I suddenly caught the smell of Conor’s aftershave, and thought “Oh I wonder if that was you?” Then I found another small white feather.
How childhood traumas can cause mental health issues
I was broken as a child, and my mind was scarred. I had lost my siblings, my mother, and my father. I experienced abuse and neglect.
The Constant Battle
My life this constant battle | To maintain equilibrium |Trying to defect each cutting criticism |You fire at me to rattle | My fragile mind.
‘Why Are You Always So Tired?’
Trying to function when every thought, every muscle is screaming at us not to is life-changingly tiresome. Getting out of bed is fucking hard work.