What makes us attach to people who harm us? Why do we find it almost impossible to leave abusive relationships? How do we change this pattern?
You’re Back
You’re back | What do you want? | You can’t have my soul | It’s not mine to grant | You want my sanity? | My peace of mind?
Didn’t want this
I didn’t want this | I didn’t choose it | I didn’t wake up and tell myself | Let’s be anxious | Let’s be depressed | Let’s end it all | I didn’t want this
My love/hate relationship with the NHS
I want to make a difference. I can’t stand the thought that people are being let down in the same way that I have been, and continue to be, let down!
Everything is not as it seems
People are too scared to put a spanner in their portrayal of their perfect lives to speak up. That is why World Suicide Prevention Day is so damn important.
High Days and Holidays – The Enormity of my Grief
High days and holidays are even more difficult than the ordinary days. His absence is more apparent and the enormity of my grief is even more intense.
Missing Out
It’s hard to accept, but having chronic mental ill-health and taking medication every day has a significant impact on what I’m physically able to do.
Peaks and Troughs
A poem about the constant fluctuations of borderline personality disorder and how it feels to experience such opposing peaks and troughs.
Sui-versary – nearly reattempt – I didn’t, again
I nearly reattempted. I’m still in self-destruct mode, but their mental health team are going to try their magic wand this time.
Periods of War: Mental Health and Menstruation
I could really do without fluctuating moods that confuse and overwhelm me. I could do without quietly wondering what my chances of having kids are.
Between a Rock and a Hard Place
in 2005, I became so ill that I checked myself into a long-term mental health facility. But the staff said Dissociative Identity Disorder did not exist.
The Scribbles of Emotional Intensity Disorder
I am a musician, I am a singer, I am a uni student. I am someone with emotional intensity disorder! The scribbles of my thoughts…