Celebrating little victories, times I don’t let the voice of social anxiety that lives in my brain whispering ‘everyone thinks you’re pathetic’ win.
It’s been a year since I first met you
The paramedics and police stretchered you in. I remember repeatedly saying, ‘I know him.’ I think I was in shock. You’re the one I can’t forget.
The Life I Lost
The life I lost | The joy forever gone | Replaced by pain and grief | The smiling heart forever lost | Replaced by emptiness
Complaining about mental health services
I have made several complaints about my care. Here is some information about how to make a complaint and organisations that can help.
Positive sides of BPD
We are passionate. If we care about something, we immerse ourselves in it. We will pour our whole hearts out. Our love is so intense.
No one will believe you
‘Who is going to believe you?’ That’s what my step-mum used to tell me every single time she hurt me. Often with my face mashed against the wall…
Depression and anxiety f*cking suck!!!
It’s all in your head, just get up and go out, they said. So I did. But now I’m dripping in sweat. Rocking so hard I’m shaking the seat.
Being positive when dealing with depression
Being positive when dealing with depression is hard. Near impossible at times, believe me, I know. Finding a small bit of positivity in the sea of black.
Unexpected Triggers – Our 9th Month
Every month brings unexpected triggers. 9 months feels unbearably long. Missing him is absolutely the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life.
Facing The Stigma of BPD
Tarnished as being difficult or manipulative, we are unheard. How can we speak out and defend ourselves against the stigma of BPD?
BPD and Decision-Making
When a moment arises where I have to make a decision, my heart immediately starts pounding, I can literally feel my chest tightening.
She had to travel through madness to find herself
I didn’t do anything wrong, this is because of stuff that was done to me, not because I’m a bad person. So I refuse to hide.