Mental health problems have plagued and blighted me since I went to university in 1982. The diagnosis by psychiatrists is that I’m enduring schizophrenia.
Waiting for the Other Shoe to Fall
If as children we lived in a threatening world where our needs were met with our caregivers responding with abuse, we become hyperalert for danger.
Please Don’t
Please don’t see lazy | Please don’t see rude | Please don’t see angry | Please don’t see distant | Please don’t see it as a choice.
How to get better?
Feelings aren’t fact. It’s still there, like a whisper some mornings, but I laugh to myself now. Naaaa, you won’t get me again.
Missing Out
It’s hard to accept, but having chronic mental ill-health and taking medication every day has a significant impact on what I’m physically able to do.
Peaks and Troughs
A poem about the constant fluctuations of borderline personality disorder and how it feels to experience such opposing peaks and troughs.
Finding Beauty After Trauma
Allowing ourselves to peek out from behind the clouds of despair that often follow a traumatic event and see the beauty around us is life-giving.
The Scribbles of Emotional Intensity Disorder
I am a musician, I am a singer, I am a uni student. I am someone with emotional intensity disorder! The scribbles of my thoughts…
The Walls Between Us
As traumatized children, we avoided insanity by forming alters and amnesiac barriers. This becomes a huge problem in adulthood.
Motherhood: a beautiful, terrifying mess
Postpartum anxiety lives in the shadows between who I was and who I am, what I perceive the world expects of me and what I have to give.
Don’t let anxiety win
I was going to cancel. But I needed a reason. What would my friend think of me? Would I regret not going? Would I really miss out?
How The Avengers Saved My Life
I still fully intended to take my own life. All that had changed was the “when” of it. I would wait until after the eventual release of “The Avengers”.