I was driving at about 125 mph. No intention of ever reaching home. Rational thought had left me. I could turn the wheel hard and tip the car over.
Starting Counselling
She was warm and kind. She told me she wouldn’t judge me for anything. I didn’t believe her, I judge myself, so why wouldn’t anyone else?
Am I mad? Should I fight the demons?
Am I mad to believe in forgiveness and friendship when someone has caused me so much pain? Am I stupid to forgive? Am I scared to accept help?
Always Somebody Worse Off
Facing my illness, I met a guy in the waiting room who had a horrible choice to make. Now I remember there is always someone worse off than me.
It’s Time
It’s time for me to rebuild my life, to look forward instead of back. Time for me to let go of what I have to, and to confront and deal with what I must.