Trying to be other people exhausted me. They still overshadowed me, because it came naturally for them. I wanted to be the real me so hard.
Mirror
When I look in the mirror | There is nothing to see | I am blinded by the feeling |Just not wanting to be | She used to be there | Many moons ago
The Up Paradox
The problem with Up is that you forget, and you begin to believe that there was nothing ever wrong with you in the first place.
It’s time to talk; turn the dark cloud into a rainbow
I anticipate that “awkward silence”. A big, black rain cloud moving closer to you, over you, as if all of a sudden, you get soaked and everyone else is dry.
Dear Depression
You completely dominated my life, and I watched, helpless, from a tiny glass room inside my head. You snaked around every part of my brain.
Tears Won’t Come
My eyes sting with the start of tears, but they just don’t want to come out. Maybe letting them all go would help, but would I be able to stop?
Nobody gets me
Nobody cared. I would cry myself to sleep, scream along to Simple Plan, but no one ever entered my room to ask if I was okay, and I kept sinking.
The Criminalization of Mental Illness
My schizophrenia emerged at university. I kept turning up at the department offices and behaving bizarrely. I needed help, but instead I was arrested.
Anxiety and why the only way is through it
It’s come as a shock to me that reducing anxiety isn’t what I need to be doing. That if you’re going through hell, you need to keep going.
I’ll never have that
The special something that bewitched me | I’ll never have that | That lingering hug | I’ll never have that | The look that says ‘I want you’
My First CBT session
Everything she said rung true, and I cried. I think they were tears of relief or happiness that she plucked that example out of thin air.
I Choose To Forgive
As a Christian, I look to the scriptures for examples on how I should live my life. I’m sharing why I choose to forgive and some tips on letting go.