I needed someone to give me a hand and understand me, but the very thought of that terrified me. I was silent too long, but now I’m done being invisible.
I told the hospital psychiatrist, ‘I’m fine, I’m glad it didn’t work’, even forcing a smile. I was lying. Luckily, I was sent to a secure psychiatric unit.
I could be having an ‘Okay’ day, everything plodding along nicely, then I suddenly turn into Demon Woman! The Switch in Borderline Personality Disorder.
The only way to conquer dissociative behavior is to own what we’ve done. This sounds harsh, but with the acceptance of responsibility comes great power.
Finding faith in myself can be a struggle. But I just decided to give school another try. I know the pain of mental illness, and I want to help others.
I was trapped inside. I could not leave my bed, let alone my house. I could not answer the door. But I sought help, and now my house no longer shackles me.