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depression is not beautiful
it’s smelly breath because you haven’t brushed your teeth in 5 days
your hair is so greasy, people wonder why you always wear a cap
showers are no longer part of your routine
you step on the scale and realize you lost 11 pounds
you feel sick just thinking about food
running red lights because your mind wanders off
it’s going to bed crying and waking up at 2 am, crying
you can’t fall back asleep because your thoughts are screaming at you
and even if your thoughts were quiet, your insomnia would never allow you to go back to sleep
depression is never hanging out with friends, you can’t leave your house
hell, you can’t even leave your bed
that’s why you tell them you’re busy, they believe the lies anyway
depression is listening to someone speak, but not hearing a word they say
you nod along, hoping they’ll shut up
everything is overwhelming, dark and sad
even when it’s sunny, you see dark clouds
it’s a different mental breakdown everyday
until you become so numb you can no longer feel anything
you lose yourself, completely
and your left wondering if you’ll make it out alive
there is nothing beautiful about depression
absolutely nothing
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