If only I could stop living in the past, and forget about the years of sexual abuse! I told, and I was called a liar. Then history repeated itself.
*Trigger Warning* Fighting the urge to stop fighting
I fight for my rights, I fight for my dreams. Yet the world fights against me and complains when I scream! Fighting the urge to stop fighting.
Losing My Smile
My confidence was never from within and now I take five times longer on my appearance and hide from cameras. I miss my smile.
Being Alone
I soldier on, fighting this battle, hoping for someone to “have my back” so to speak but too afraid to ask. Being alone is hard.
I think I’m Paranoid (and complicated)
My paranoid thoughts whisper to me. My insecurities have been pressing down on me oppressively since yesterday. I’ve been very very still today.
Learning To Forgive Myself
Forgive yourself and not them, is what we all deserve to hear. I don’t need to forgive my abusers. I forgive myself and I’m no longer ashamed. I’m proud.
My Malfunction. I Carry my Burden as a Mark of Shame
I carry my burden as a mark of shame. I pummel it down into backpacks. And I rarely assess. I scarce consider this may not be my fault.
Depression & The Fog That Never Ends
Depression and bad experiences have left me pretty much broken, in a fog that never ends, an endless desert of despair.
Let’s Talk Now: Time to Talk Day 2018
Tomorrow is Time to Talk Day 2018. It aims to get people talking about mental health issues, reduce the taboo and make it easy for people to ask for help.
Never Lose Hope — Living Without Alcohol
In the darkness of alcoholism I tried to take my life. But I got help. I’m living without alcohol and life is good. Talk to someone, never give up hope.
Triggered — Automatic Thoughts
Nobody knows what a person has gone through. Early experiences form a template for automatic thoughts. If someone seems “overly sensitive”, don’t judge.
Christmas aftermath — when the cravings kick in
I’ve achieved another sober Christmas. Here’s how I resist when the cravings kick in. I’m celebrating a small victory, and so can you.