The medication must be starting to work, as I had a glimpse of me last Saturday. It was great to feel like ‘me’ again, but I also felt sad as I realised I’ve been very down for a while (it’s been interesting reading my previous blog posts this week!)
A glimpse of me
I’ve always found I need my depression/anxiety to get to a certain point when it physically stops me before I admit defeat and recognise I need medication/time out to put myself right. A couple of weeks before I got to this point I was aware of physical changes in myself, and I think if this happens again I’m going to take action then to see if that makes things easier.
As you can tell I do get annoyed and frustrated when depression brings me to a halt – you would think I would be used to it now. Maybe learning to accept it would make the whole experience easier too. I think that is something I will really need to work on!
I’ve been very lucky to have some counselling sessions through work. This is showing me areas in my life where anxiety is triggered/increased. I am also trying a different style of meditation. As I see it, everything I try gives me more coping strategies to help in the future. Even if they can’t prevent the depression/anxiety they might help me bounce back quicker.
Reproduced with permission, originally posted on soulstitch