By Sophie Ann
Where do I begin? The stupid mistakes of my past have made me who I am. For the worse, I might add. The blind me of the past that couldn’t see what was right in front of her. Imagine me screaming, crying, looking into a mirror and shouting all of this at myself, trying to punish my reflection for being so weak. Our toxic relationship has left scars.
Why did I stay?
Why, why did I stay? You played me from the fucking start and you ruined my faith in love. Why? I hate you so much and I hope you get hurt so bad you feel as shit as I do because of a lying girlfriend that rips your heart to shreds. No-one will heal these wounds you’ve pressed into my mind.
The bullshit you told me about being trustworthy was about as true as Trump’s speeches. You are poison and I hope someone cleanses you. You’re such a bad person, you’ve made me not trust anyone, my boyfriend or any friend. You’ve made me paranoid that he will cheat and break my heart, when I know damn well he’s the most perfect thing that I have in my life.
You were toxic
You have made me shed a ocean full of tears and made me regret the year of my life that I knew you. I was so stupid and blind to see what you are. And your mates are as bad as you. You don’t tell someone to kill themselves, or blackmail them many times, with things that I opened up to you about. You were toxic and you had me wrapped around your little finger. I was weak, I was plain. I was stubborn.
Never stay in a toxic relationship
You can’t hurt me. The scars still remain and your words still stain, but I will learn from people like you and I will get better. I can do better.
Anyone who reads this, take a step back and think about the people in your life. Do they make you happy and make YOU stronger? Because if not, dump them in the drain and find yourself a sunshine. Never stay in a toxic relationship.
Reproduced with permission, originally posted here