This is Me

By Elyse Hall

So this is something new that I’m trying out. Blogging. Specifically I want to blog about my life, my PTSD recovery, my mental health journey and fashion!

I suppose first I should introduce myself. My name is Elyse Hall. I love fashion, it provides a wonderful way for me to feel good about myself. Even on days I feel bad I try to fix myself up because it never fails to make me feel better about myself, even if I only wear the outfit for two hours.

I have PTSD, PMDD, OCD, GAD and Panic Disorder. Sound fun, right? Totally.

I was raped on three separate occasions, beginning at a very young age. I was 6. So I have been living with PTSD for most of my life. I never told anyone until I was 18 and haven’t dealt with it very well. I was doing a lot of drugs and drinking too much for a long time, trying to make it all disappear. It only made things worse over time. I didn’t want to talk about it, so I bottled all of my feelings and memories away, which just led to self shaming and further destruction.

I’ve attempted suicide multiple times. Thankfully, they were unsuccessful. I have been in several emotionally abusive relationships and generally had a very poor view of myself. I am now 30, almost 31 and it is just now that I am really seeking help for my problems. I am finally breaking free of these chains! I’ve finally found a psychologist and a psychiatrist that know what they are doing and it has been so amazingly helpful.

I now have an intense passion to try and share my story in hopes of inspiring others and end the stigma that surrounds mental illness.

I will continue to share a more in-depth look at my own journey through the shit that comes with having mental illnesses, I hope that through sharing my own journey others will feel less alone.

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