By Tom Wavre
Recently, I accidentally went 5 days without taking my medication. I fight depression and to a lesser extent anxiety, and have been helped in this by 20mg of citalopram every day for around 2 1/2 years. Though with no relation to this article I have recently switched to Duloxetine.
I had a mix up, either I lost 4 weeks worth of meds or I totally lost track of when I should be getting a repeat prescription. Either way I messed up and was without. This coincided with the weekend and then going to France on a business trip. All of which making getting an emergency prescription that bit harder! So what did I find in those 5 days of not taking meds:
5 days without taking my medication
To be honest, no real change, didn’t notice much at all. I’ve missed individual days of my meds before with no impact on mood or anything else and this was no different. Important for me to note (and I will do this a few times in this article!) we are all different – me skipping one day has no impact, that does not mean that will be the case for you!
Again very little impact. No change in mood and no noticeable side effects. Again important to remind you this is my experience and there is no reason to believe this would be yours. If you do ever forget to take your meds, do as the doctor should already have told you – take it as soon as you remember, but if you’ve skipped a whole day DO NOT take double to make up for the missed dose.
First half the of the day was fine. Second half of the day I started to feel very light headed and was really struggling for oxygen. I was at a family gathering and we had all been in the same living room for quite a while when I found it very hard to breathe properly. Chest was heavy and my head was a little faint. I regularly had to go outside to get fresh air (it was a cold day which I think helped). When outside I would feel a bit better but very quickly regress when I went back inside. I later had to drive my wife and 2 children back home on a 2 hour drive at night. It didn’t feel dangerous but I certainly didn’t want the journey to be delayed at all. Went to bed a bit queezy – no noticeable change in mood however.
Early Monday morning start to catch a flight to Lyon for work. Very tired, partly due to the early start, partly due to my 4 month old son, partly due to the missed meds. Me not always being the brightest had not put yesterdays light headedness down to the medication. I had simply put it down to a room with stale air. Not feeling great, on top of the tiredness, a little queezy and lightheaded still. Running on adrenaline as there is a 40 minute delay on the slip road to Heathrow. I nearly miss the flight having to run most of the way through the terminal. Slump into my seat in a pretty sorry state!
Get off the other end, 75 minute drive to the office and by now I am really struggling. I am unable to focus, it feels like all my insides are swimming and floating around my body. When required I can just about focus for a 2 minute conversation (and I’m in near constant meetings at this point!) but then the world turns back to liquid. I feel like a waterbed with kids jumping on it.
It suddenly dawns on me that this is all down to the meds and nothing else, looking at when I’ll be back in the UK and able to collect my prescription, and not feeling very optimistic. Strange to note that mood still unaffected by this. I had always had doubts over whether citalopram had positively impacted my mood, and this added to those questions
I never lasted 5 days without taking my medication. I’m lucky that the sister-in-law of a guy who works for me in France, works at a pharmacy. He already knew about my depression as I had been open with him about it and thankfully was able to get me some citalopram the evening of the 4th day. By morning I felt normal again, as well as very relieved and very thankful to my colleague!
5 days without taking my medication – CONCLUSIONS:
- Don’t miss your meds! Not taking your meds is never advisable, so please don’t skip them. The side-effects are not pleasant even if the first day feels normal, that is not going to last.
- Meds are not placebos or sugar pills that’s for sure!
- Do not be put off the idea of meds by my experience, they are a valuable, and often essential tool in fighting mental illness and they can help you.
- Treat them with respect, don’t mess about with them, and do closely follow what your doctor tells you.
The impact on mood and from side-effects will vary for everybody so do not think the above is how it would play out for you. You might experience side-effects sooner, your mood might well be hit quickly as well. You might last longer, you might not last as long.